ahhh another night like this. I cant wind down, I want to relax normally. Its cold in my room, my bed is a mess, and my cats are giving each other baths. How I wish my ears could be half way normal. Even though I put myself in these predictaments I hate being left out. I know its for the great good. But the great good can wait for a second, and let me get through. Sometimes Im such a moron. Tomorrow isnt going to be a good day I can predict, oh I know the saying if you think its going to be a bad day its going to be. but fuck you guys on your logic. Im tired of fighting all the time in my life for my family. My dad says he “loves” me but he barly calls, Im the one who has to contact him. Told him the truth that Im gay and blames its on my mom, saying “she let you go crazy”. whatever this sadness that I have right now is on the urge of anger….
